In my head by Ogri Mathilda Sarah (@mathillss)

Here I am...
Here is where I am
Deep in daylight
Sinking in darkness
Sipping this eve's still
Stillness in motion
Stillness in my emotion
Don't touch me!
Move away
Talk less
And say no more
Say no more, like you care
Say no more, for your pretence unfolds
Say no more with your fugitive words
Say no more with your routed deviance that imprints sadness
Say my courteous fellow
Say no more my edged friend
Why must I listen.
Your strings drag me crawling
And weary
For attached I've losed my sense of bearings
My sense to hold still
My sense of selfless charity
To self gloat
A gloat to why I fell deep
In your concoction called love
Why must I worry
Why must I be bothered about your dismissal
Why must I worry when you far from distance
Stay away
Stay far away
Let me in this lone cone
Where I cuddle tight your hurts
With unleavened care
Stay away with your luv
Stay away from my head as it pounds
For this eve,
I lay without you in my present
this is what I've become
This is the subject we sit to discuss
A subject with my head and heart in war..
Please don't stop loving me.

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